Driving to Canada this past weekend was exactly what I needed. Just me, good music, and an open road.
I reflected over and over again about this past year and all the changes in my life. Pardon the deep thoughts this morning friends, but honestly, to look back and think that I was living my life bound by fear, insecurity, sadness, and uncertainty... it all seems incomprehensible now. I remember spending most of my days struggling, knowing that I wasn't living life like I was meant to. This adventurous, fearless, life loving, happy side of myself was non-existant, yet still at my core.
This past weekend I kept thinking, here I am. I'm doing what I've wanted to do. I may not have the relationship, finances, material possessions or the exact course of my life planned out, but I have what I have and I live my life. I complain less, rarely say no to doing things, smile more, laugh more, and do a whole lot more.
I care less about gossip, less about looks, and more about friendship, family, and finding beauty in all the different people in my life.
I could give a rip about what someone thinks about me. Where I used to crumble at a negative comment, I can now smile, laugh and be strong in who I am.
Where I used to speak softly and rarely speak my mind, I now try to speak carefully, yet speak up.
And when it comes to taking risks and getting uncomfortable, I believe that is what life is all about.
I still don't have all the answers, but I do know one thing-
Things don't change unless you change them.
Don't let life get boring.